Let me be free

 2009... A new year with new beginnings.. Fresh starts always help me put things in a clear perspective. I unconsciously ask myself  am l making progress toward who I want to be without any judgements and pressures from other people. Can I set myself free without worrying about  their thoughts? Or this illusion only exists in my mind as long as I think there is. There is one thing I know for sure, your worries won't leave you, even if you go as far as you can. There is no need to be scared of being who you are. I was scared of that for a long time. And now l learn it is okay to think and believe what l choose without any judgements or social pressures of my place of birth. Sometimes, l still feel guilty of my new way of life, and how dramatic changes  I made in my life, and my faith. How brave and eager l was to make those changes? How persistent l was to get on that plane and smile myself saying l am going to have a good future in America? A friend of me once said that l was very courageous to take those necessary actions to come and stay in America. When I was talking to another friend today, she said l was very brave to continue to stay against all hardships l face. She said" l would have returned long time ago." I laughed and said l can't imagine a life without challenges, this is what makes life so precious. That after all suffering we reach the sense of triumph, a feeling of true happiness knowing the barriers we overcame, remembering the painful, desperate moments we thought it wasn't gonna end someday. In that moment we feel, we can overcome anything that is thrown to us by taking the responsibility. All these sacrifices lead us to success, but it is impossible to reach success without patience. We should keep going, keep looking, keep doing the right thing without fearing of becoming who we really are. Discouragement? Yes we will have many... But we never know until we try...